What Goes Around, Comes Around

Hopes.

2011-08-25T12:08:00.001-07:00

I have nothing much to say already I think. Sigh. I really am feelings-less right now. I dont know what to feel, neither do I could think properly. You had awful arguements with your family. I really dont know what to say to help you. Everytime I say something, it doesnt help but it makes you more angrier than ever. ): I feel like a toilet bowl. You would just throw in everything to me to listen, then expect me to flush everything away. I dont mind you telling, shouting or crying abt your problems, i can give you a listening ear. But not bringing in topics on me that you are angry at all of a sudden. Bringing me to the ground. Feeling shitty to listening to your problems.
I even apologized you for what I've did, You dont seem to accept it, but instead, you bring in more and more miserable things and anger on me. Why dont you just accept my apology and ignore everything. settle it. done. Cant you do that? And now, i was just expecting an apology from you. Just one word "sorry" is that hard to say? Somethings, when you did something wrong, and im involved, you didnt apologized me. NOT EVEN A BIT. But sometimes you do. And there are times when I apologized you first, THEN you would apologized me, when it is clearly you starting all the problems and then i overreacting on it. Sigh. Now onwards, when we fight, I would always have the thought of moving forward alone or with you still. Seriously, EVERY SINGLE FIGHT. I would always have that thought. Fucking serious! GOD.

Learn to be patient at times. When it is fated to be like that, dont bother fighting it. Let it be. Its god challenge for you. Learn it! Pls. For your goodness sake and future.

Silence in Despair

2011-08-18T12:23:00.000-07:00

Im disappointed and mad at you. Im starting to be falling onto the false hope side. You starting to go back to your thing of using the "aku, kau". I dont see the point of moving on with you if you still have that kind of thing in your mind towards me. Seriously, where do you start with? And where do you end to? This reminds me of the past fights we have. Slightly the same. But still abit of different and change going on.

Yes, Im sorry that Im annoying with "okay can". Im practically sick and I was bored so, thought of joking around would just be the thing to have everything turn around. Well maybe I was overdoing it till you got annoyed. And Yes, I like girls to dress up. And I know you hate dressing up. But the contradicting part of you is that, at one time you said you hate dressing up, another one time you said "time to have get myself dressed nicely" and THAT point of time, I did a 50-50 smile, cuz it triggered me the time where you said you hate dressing up. And then now, you said it again that you hate dressing up. And NOW im confused. Really confused. WHICH ONE IS IT?! Hate it? Or trying to like it? Sigh.

Now the fact that I did tweet that because I want to counter tweet your retweet. Everybody retweet things for a reason right? Who doesnt? I find it dumb if people do that for no particular reason in mind. Of course you like what you retweet right? So I felt uneasy for the moment.
I didnt want to talk to you abt it but instead tried to do it another way. You commented on my tweets cause I know you felt slight uneasy. But I didnt comment anything. Not a single word abt it. "its just a retweet" - yuh thats what you said. What if I tweet MY TWEET first. Obviously you would have the same awkward and uneasy feeling and same comment on it.

Now you were mad abt me. For which one is it im not sure. When I asked you, you said you dont know. Well nvmd. You figure it out. I called you, no answers. I texted ya no replies. Im not gonna sleep for the whole night. I dont know if you read this. But im still not sleeping. Now that you said "Jangan harap aku nak bbl ngan kau". WTF is that suppose mean ah? Well that was my first impression when I read that. Well, I have nothing much to say but to keep quiet and not talk to you and leave you alone till you think you are ready for everything. Im not gonna text ya. Im just gonna keep quiet. Im just gonna be alone and do nothing but sleep and eat.

And by the looks of it, you dont want to talk to me at all. Well so be it. I know I dont play the guitar well, or sings like you always wanted that time. But Im someone who cares abt you so much. Till even when Im sick, i still have a chat with. Be it fast or long, still at least a chat with you. Be it a short call. Till even when Im sick, would still worry abt you when you want to go out in the middle of the night with no replies in the end. Till even when Im sick, Im gonna sacrifice myself not to sleep pretending that its all my fault that cause all of these to happen.

Now if you do call me, Im not gonna answer those calls. Now if you text me, Im just gonna do the same as what you did earlier tonight. See if you care or worry abt me. Now I dont care abt myself. Im not gonna take my meds nor rest for the rest of the week, till I get well naturally on my own without any help.

Goodbye.
ShAzzy.

Wtf. Just WHAT THE FUCK.

2011-08-07T09:50:00.000-07:00

Im really pissed right now. Seriously. You pissed? HAH. Kau fikir kau sorang pe ah?! Orang just ade dream pasal tu budak and bilang kau. Kau tanyer aku tadi, aku chose not to tell you in the first place pasal benda gini akan jadi. Gadoh. GADUH GADUH GADUH. Binget kau tau tak. kalau aku bilang kau biler kau tanyer aku tadi, THE SAME SHIT GONNA HAPPEN KAU TAU TAK. kimak. AKU BINGET KAU TAK. Aku ni matair kau, aku faham camne kau rase, kau leh cakap lagi aku tak faham? "You'll never fucking understand me!" Aku ni ape? Matair kental ape sia?! Anak patung?! Kau sendiri cakap aku sorang faham perasan kau. Sekarang cakap tak. Ape ni?! Mane satu aku nk PERCAYA NI AH?! CB! SIAL betul. Aku berbual ngan pompuan salah. Aku tak bbl ngan pompuan salah. APE KAU NAK NI AH!?! Aku tak bbl ngan pompuan, nanti kau cakap kau selfish la ape la. TAU PUN! Kalau aku bbl ngan pompuan, MARAH AKU LA JEALOUS LA. KORANG POMPUAN COMPLICATED GILER BABI LAAAH CB. AKU KAT SINI DAH SETIA PADA KAU. KAU NK BISING2 MACAM TAKLEH PECAYA AKU. KAU SENDIRI ADE CRUSH. ABEH BERANI BISING PASAL AKU. Kau ade bbl ngan laki kawan kau tu semua aku cakap je. Tak bising pun. Jealous memang jealous. Tapi aku caya kau. Pasal aku ade trust in kau. Lepas tu, aku dah tak bising lagi. Aku bbl ngan kawan ppm aku pun kau dah bising cam nak bunuh aku gitu. wtf siaa. Lebih baik, aku LONER KAN!! BBL NGAN LAKI JE. KAN SENANG GITU. CAKAP JE UH KALAU KAU NAK GITU. STRAIGHFORWARD SUDAH AH.
BIAR KAU TAK BUAT BISING. KATER AKU BUAT HAL AH GINI?! Kau cakap aku benda siket nak bising. HAH! KONEK AH. AKU benda siket nak bising? PLS LA. Kau yg membebel cam orang GILA tengking kat aku. Aku dah baik2 cakap drop the topic drop the topic, kau BISING lagi, KAU BISING LAGI. Aku belom attached balik ngan kau tau ni, DAH BISING BISING. APE LAGI KALAU AKU DAH NGAN KAU BALIK KAN?!?! KATER NAK TUKAR TUKAR. Abeh gadoh ngan aku cam ADE HAL SIAL gitu. kimak. serious ah. KAU NYER EGO CAM SIAL. aku ade kat sini trying to support kau, listening to kau nyer probs and sharing things. Kau kat situ jerit jerit maki maki aku je tau. CAMNE NAK MOVE ON NI AH. KIMAAAAK LAH. SIAAAAAAL!!!! Aku tak faham ah biler kau gini. SERIOUS SIA.

Its really horrible to have couples that fight in this manner. Disrecpectful for each other. Seriously, having a lot of fights not gonna work. The worst fight ever between us. You really gotta change. I really am disappointed with you and dont get what you want exactly. I really hate it when you have your ego up in ur head and starts to trigger and everything comes out, regardless of true or lie out of anger. Im just hurt when you screamed and yelled at me. You already begged me to come back to you. It takes time to have me think abt it. Seriously, we know each other for almost 3 years plus. And Im glad that we made it far. Im sorry Zilah. I guess I really have to go this time. Seriously, its not gonna work that way. And yes. I was abt to ask you if I could come back to you when we meet until this happened. It changed my mind. It was so horrible that it can change my mind so instant and in such a quick way of no turning back. Sigh. i really love you. In my heart. So good luck for your future. I guess i have nothing to say anymore. Gonna wish the best for your new boyfriend and tell him to take care of you more than I could take care of you. Goodluck. :'/

With loves,
Shazzysamdol.

A little surprise for you huh.

2011-03-19T08:35:00.000-07:00

Just what the hell. I dont understand. Why are we like this. I just asked you a simple question. You kept quiet. Oh come on. Please. ):
Worse case is that you keep insulting me. Insult me like any other insults you made in your life. Its just shocked and disappointing.
Who says I gave up on you? Since when? Im just trying to let you cool down and call me back when you're really yourself. I dont know you heard what I said, but all I get a tweet from you that I just hung up. What the fuck? Are you making up stories to put me to shame to others? WHO AM I TO YOU? AN ASSHOLE? OR YOUR LOVED BOYFRIEND? )': You know it fucking hurts when you do that. Insult me like hell. Hope you're satisfied right now. )))':
NEVER in my life have I insult you. NEVER in my life, have I the thought to insult you.
Wanna know why? Its because I love you. Do you even know whats love are for? The secrets behind LOVE? OMG ): Im just fucking speechless. NEVER in my life would I hurt you to THAT FUCKING EXTENT. Sigh. Now you're not talking to me. Im just so fucking disappointed. I did nothing wrong and there you go screaming like hell (Fyi. I was abt to say "there you go screaming like a crazy bitch" But I didnt.) SEE what I mean by loving you! ): Oh.My.God.

You girls are just nasty. We guys here are to be there with you always. And there you go screaming at us like we're just a waste for you girls. We guys dont yell at you whenever we want to. you girls are complicated. But still, we guys love you and try our very best to adapt to you girls to have our relationship a wonderful one. When those types of guys that ditch you or being an asshole to you girls, you all cry, complaint, insult. But when we, the type of guys that are totally the opposite of that, you girls still complaint and insult instead of making use of we particular types that are always with you wherever you are. Sigh.

I love you still )':
<3 Shazzy,

Average

2011-03-17T09:20:00.001-07:00

Well, tonight we didnt talk on the msn that much. Wanted to have a nice chat with her. But then she's busy with her stuffs so I just kept quiet and let her to handle her stuffs first. So I waited and waited for her till that I fall asleep in front of my lappy. Thought I would be able to have a chat with her afer she had done with her stuffs. But unfortunately, we didnt. As soon as she found out that I fell asleep in front of my laptop, we called it a night. D:
Sigh. Well nevermind then. Somehow, nowadays, I dont see a point for me to online cos at times, its either she took a long time to reply and that cos me to lose the momentum or mood to talk to her OR we talked for sometime, then kept quiet whereby it was my last reply till that she could possibly be busy with her stuffs till that she didnt chat with me. I dont know what she's doing or busy with. I dont want to be a busybody or accused as one nor I want to make assumptions even though my thinking said so. So the only the thing that I can do is just to keep quiet. Sigh. Not a good night tonight. Nvm. Im changing. I will only keep my doubts or anger here. No else where.
Well have a good night everybody out there except me. Bye.

Expect the Unexpected.

2011-03-16T09:10:00.001-07:00

This will be my journal or diary. No one knows.(unless someone views my blog uh)

I dont know what to do now. My mind just cant stop thinking stupid crap imaginations. I trust my gf. And she trust me and I must not lose her trust for me. I love her alot. But anything can happen in the future. We may never know. But im just saying that if she loses my trust for her, well thats it. I wont hesitate to put us to an end. Seriously. I will not be surprise if that happens. I wont fight. I will just put it to an end. No point me to not put it to an end, as it may happen again in the late future, after what happened. Im sorry. But to leave me no choice. Trust we must treasure. You lose it, thats your fucking problem and you are responsible for it. Take things for granted. Dont say I didnt say or warn you. Its ur loss. Too bad.

Patience the worth.

2011-03-13T11:04:00.001-07:00

Well, my dear love has came back from Penang. Gosh I miss her so much.!!

Oh well, I made an okay start. But now. Sigh. Everything ruined. By me.
Im gonna just keep this to myself and trying hard to not be like who I used to be back then where I repeat my mistakes all over again. Im gonna pretend that Im happy. I've said to myself. Im gonna change. Maybe Im not gonna freak out nor worry too much nor sad nor blaming myself or any other things directly. Im just gonna stay calm on the outside. Like as if nothing just happened. (:

Now she's pissed off. Okay. Im just gonna keep quiet and not bug her anymore even though I miss her alot. Im just surprised that girls think of guys that way at times. We guys never ever had a thought in mind that we could say that girls pissed us off that directly.
We respect our girls and love them alot like no other and there you go girls, treating as like some other human being. Oh well. Still, Im gonna keep quiet. Keep everything. Shuts up all the wrong thing I did. And starts to learn my mistakes one by one.

I piss you off right? I made you angry right? Why dont I just Shut The Fuck Up? Hows that?

No one knows when I will update my blog nor anyone looking at my dead blog. (:
Once a while testing patience. (:

Effort

2011-01-10T09:53:00.000-08:00

Why do I always fail?
Everything that I tried always turn sour.
She wanted seoul garden, I wanted seoul garden too.

Firstly, I didnt realise that, on the 14th Jan is my CCA camp, and I said to her that I'll be free on that day for seoul garden. Since then, I try to fit another day for it. Like I said, I never give up till I got it. Even if Im really busy, I will still keep on trying and giving all out. Im doing this all for her. And I never ever forget our anniversary. Thats one of the most important date in my life, that I will never never forget, not even a tiny bit. Even though, I tend to forget stupid things. But this? Dont ever think of my brain burning all the storage I had for the date. So I turn out to fit the outing on Wednesday and best thing is that at the same time its our 9th monthsary. That is really awesome. So I put more fun to it by inviting the ones that gives peace, laughter and joy. I just wanted her to be happy and see her beautiful smiles on her face. Thats all I want. Wouldn't want to ask for more.
She's happy. Im happy. She's really really happy, Im proud of myself for doing this.

Please give me a chance. ):

I really hope you like this and appreciate what I've done for you.

Effort ends with joy.

Possible Comeback?

2011-01-09T04:26:00.000-08:00

Hi blog. Im now somehow unsure if I should do a possible return to my blog. Maybe, I should see how it goes. Since its dead, and no ones happens to come across my blog then I should kept it quiet and safe.

This is something personal. Maybe I should make this blog like a diary.

Somehow, Im really facing difficulties in being a relationship. For me, I love to help my friends in relationship issues, but sometimes I myself cant get it right on some things on my own relationship. And thats really sad. I dont know uh. Is it really not my time to have a girlfriend?. Does that show that Im not ready to be in a relationship? Or is it just me being over complacent even on a small issue that we had? Hmm. I need answers. I need help. I just dont seem to be able to seek some answers to my problems.

I know I keep on trying a lot of ways to keep her happy most of the times. Sometimes I achieved it, but sometimes I just failed.

I even tried hard to give her what she's been wanting.
I remembered that she wanted to go for a swim, and at first the day didnt come as I cant make it due to some circumstances. But I didnt just gave up and still tried to find a suitable day for me to have a swim her. I always will keep on thinking and thinking till I finally manage to find the right day. Later then, I made it and we end up swimming together. I dont really care much abt myself being happy or not on that day because for all I know that I didnt gave up and succeed on making her wants to come by. Despite all the incident that I had, (being half deaf after swimming, the pathetic dumb incident of my nose banging onto the pool edge) she's happy that she got to go swimming and that, Im happy for myself for making her happy and smile.
I remembered she kept asking going to sentosa. I wanted to go there too. Its really fun and nice place to go and enjoy. The same thing goes, but end up I made it with the help of some of my friends. I just wanted to show her, that Im really there for her no matter what. Maybe I know that she knows that Im like that. But to me somehow its like not enough. I want her to really really think and feel that Im really by her side and not giving up on her and showing her that I really love her alot. I want that.
Now we keep on fighting and fighting and I dont like it. Neither do her. I just dont know what's wrong with us. Deep inside me, I felt the guilt that Im the cause for not forgetting and appreciate whats there for me. ): Im really sad right now that she said that we should not contacting each other for sometime. And some more she's gonna start schooling soon. And even before her N levels starts, this fear had already haunt me in my head. New school, New friends, New things gonna happen. And anything gonna happen. See even as I type here, Im being complacent at the same time. Sigh. What am I gonna become. And if we dont contact each other for sometime, one of the fear I have is that, Im scared that I'll slowly lose her. Like, her love towards for me gonna fade slowly in the future. I dont want that to happen. And somemore she's starting her ITE life. If anything happens and may change our relationship, I really dont know what to do. What if she's in love with other guys there that are more handsome than me, better than me in everything. All I can do is stone. I cant do anything but leaving behind my trust to you. I want to keep on trying and trying to keep her in my life till the end. Im scared that I will fail. And never will be able to keep her long. ): Even if Im in my poly life, I didnt even look at girls or fantasize on girls in my school because I know my heart belongs to my only one girlfriend. I am really being loyal to her. I really love her a lot. I feel so pathetic. Like seriously. Thats why I've been asking myself these questions. For now, I could just hope in the future that our relationship would be as healthy as most couples on earth. And I could never stop thinking of you no matter what.

Lastly, dont you find me boring? I find myself boring. Seriously I swear. I always think, why dont you find a guy that always fun and not have fights like me. A guy that is better than me. A guy has the same type as you. The guy that have music in the first hobby so that you guys could have an adventurous life in the future together and who knows you guys could suceed in life with music. Im just like normal guy who are not confident of himself. Even if I say I have faith in myself, but still somehow the faith that I believe in slowly fades away.

Do you think we are meant to be together?

I think we are. But do you?

Only fate could tell us.

I love you to bits.. D:

Trust, trust and just trust

2010-10-27T09:53:00.000-07:00

To me, love is really complicated. For example, A guy is jealous of his girlfriend that she kept texting someone on the phone most of the time and kept smiling or laughing all of a sudden. That shows that guy really loves her alot till that he doesnt want to lose her because of jealousy.

Honestly, I felt jealousy in me alot of times. Seriously. I remembered you said that I keep on looking and clinging to my phone all the time/wherever I go. And you thought I was texting or calling some other girls. Kay heres the thing. Girls always say that guys could cheat girls feeling by talking or chatting with other girls despite being attached. This fact is wrong and right. Sometimes it is. Sometimes it isnt. For me, Im not one of them.

Eversince that birthday party incident and misunderstanding, I didnt even text anything to any other girl than you. I really had myself to not text any girls other than you, its because I dont want you to have a bit of jealousy, even if its a little bit. Cos I love you. And for me, you want to do anything you want is fine with me, as long as ur happy and going fine. (: For example, hanging out and befriend with guys, which you prefered more than girls. I understand. I dont want to control you. Its your freedom. Your life. Your decision to make. But Im just scared that when you befriend with guys too much and feelings will start to appear somehow without realising. Just like me and you. We were friends for a long time and without realising, we start to have feelings for each other. Bestfriends(guys) can lead to love. Its natural. Human nature. I just hope that you understand that way and dont get over confident of something unexpected.
This somehow made me think that for me to trust you is really my very most important issue that I have.

And I wonder, when you have problems, who do you tell them to? Your friends? Or Your Boyfriend? Cos If you tell your closest friend instead of your boyfriend, its like your boyfriend is nothing to you, an outsider, neither do closer than your closest friend. Unless the problem is abt your boyfriend, then its fine. Other than that, if that closest friend to be a guy, isnt that abit awkward and strange there? Yes it is! Its like your Boyfriend is useless. Closest guy friend is better than your boyfriend. Im dont mean anything. Im just saying. Cos I terasa abit in a way.
Sigh........Byee

Day3. Feelings

2010-09-22T11:15:00.000-07:00

Today was quite an okay day. Had jalan rayer with dawgs and sya in the afternoon. Love came along too. But she looked like she's feeling lonely as she was mostly quiet the whole time. Hmm..Maybe she's not really comfortable or not use to the rest. Sent her home and I went home too and was really shagged. Everything was fine when I came back home.

Now I dont feel like talking. I feel some of a jealousy in my heart right now till that I stoned for some time. Oh wait. Maybe now, my body and face is still stoned. I was confused at first. I had a convo with love. Everything was going fine. Till she talked abt this particular guy that wanted to talk to her to know each other. She said "EW". I wondered why. So I take a look at his picture. Okay. In my mind, "why EW?, He doesnt look that bad does he." Then all of a sudden later, she starts to say that she kept melting and melting looking at him in the picture,
till that she typed "HAHAHAH" repetitively. She suddenly became hyper for whatever reasons. I dont really know if she really meant it. But all I know is that my heart suddenly doesnt feel good everytime she says that to other guys. Somehow, I just dont like it and I got jealous easily. I've never give compliments to her abt other girls. Like seriously, even if im joking, I would still never ever give compliments abt other girls to her, not even thinking of giving compliments to other girls, because I know that in heart she will feel hurt and jealous and everything will go wrong. And I really doesnt want to lose her in anyway as possible. I know I dont look good to her. I wonder if my face would ever change. Like at least look a bit more better than now. I look so the"selenger" and young, LIKE REALLY YOUNG. WTF?!?!. I just want to be normal thats all. I look lower than normal. ): I just really wonder when will my face ever change.

Sigh. I guess I will keep on looking like this for the rest of my life. ): At least Love is cute and pretty. Me? I dont even look handsome nor tough. Im just like a noob guy still learning basics in life. ): I dont want to show how I feel when she said that, somehow I know, her mood will change and keep thinking that she regretted and felt stupid saying that to me or in front of me. That what I dont want to happen. I better keep it to myself and in my blog, since its dead and no one realises it. So yuh. Why not keep it in my blog. Unless Love happens to read it. That would be very different.

Hmmm..okay. I think I'll end here for tonight. Goodnight.

PS: I dont feel like sleeping tonight. ):

Day2.Promises

2010-09-18T09:10:00.000-07:00

*Sigh* today sucked bad. Early in the morning, went to the clinic with mum to do a check up on my left foot. I was given 2 choices to the cure of the Warts on my foot.

1. Apply cream every night for 3 months. (Not painful but long duration)
2. Go to hospital and go for a laser-burning surgery weekly. (Freaking painful but instant cure)

Im was thinking of going for choice 1. I dont want it to be painful. As it might be risky for me, who knows that my body cant take that kind of pain or something.
So yeah. But then later at night, I've been fucked up. Got scolded by her real bad! And Im not kidding. ):
When I listened to her scoldings, I really regretted on what I did to her. Like seriously, What The Fuck was I thinking man! I broke my promise, Our promise.
I really mean abt our promise, especially when it comes to her. Well I just broke my promise. Fuck sia!! I seriously dont want to break a SINGLE promise I made. Shit lah! Cb!!!!
*sigh* Now I've done it ): Man wtf was I thinking!?! Ahhhhhh!!!!!?!?!?!?!?!?! Buto ah!!!! I always thought to myself that if I've ever break a promise to my love, with my own will and trust, I felt
like doing something to myself physically or perhaps kill myself.

*Sigh* I've dissappoint here again, at my very WORST!!!. I really need to do something to myself like really. )): .
I think maybe I need to reconsider my choice again. I know I gotta do something to myself, well the only safest thing that I could think that I do is for choice 2.
*Sigh* Now I feel like an emo guy. ): Ahhh!!! I really wish I dont break my promises towards her ever again. Like really! ):.
Now Im feeling so down, dumb, stupid, idiotic, asshole, born-fucker, for doing that without thinking. And Yes she's right, I really didnt spare a thought of her.
Yes. I was right. I am really fucking busybody and ultimately selfish!!! >:( . Now she's really pissed at me. REALLY REALLY PISSED!! I really shouldn't have that such stupid things.
Kanina lah. *looks down and sigh* Im just gonna listen to what she have to say. I really am speechless right now. Im blanked.! She is really disappointed with me right now.
When I broke my promises, I feel bad already. REALLY bad ):. Now, I think I cannot be trusted then. I keep doing things thats breaking her own feelings and privacy. Like WHAT THE FUCK!?!?
If I keep on doing this over and over again, her trust for me is gonna disappear sooner or later. She will start to lose trust towards me. And if that goes on, Im gonna lose her.

If I ever lose just like that, I'll make sure Im gonna lose myself soon enough. I guess I was right. Im just useless in this world. Im just useless towards everyone. Im in no help anymore.
Not anymore in this world that im living.

But im just confused, she still loves me even if I did these kind of things to her. ): . I feel so bad. She really loved me so much and Im doing these to her. I keep on hurting her feelings one way or another. ):
Awwwww!! Im just really speechless right now.

Im sorry. Im really sorry that I've disappoint you much): .............................. bye

Goodnight...
Choice 2 then I guess.

Day1.Envy

2010-09-18T09:06:00.000-07:00

I just dont know why Im so envious abt people that are around me.
Facebook sometimes helps me to see how's people daily lifes are like.
Those with lots of friends. Especially, those are very close and talk to one another much.
Have fun together and all. For me, some friends acts so cool enough and think their
good and better than me. Taking such advantages.

If only my past weren't that bad, my present and the future wont be like this. Because of you khairul, im like this.
I hate you really, for making my life like this. Now you're changed. Its good. But its too late.
You should have change earlier or maybe not started things against me at all in the first place.
I know I wasnt really matured and you weren't too. So shut it. But now, we're matured. So lets
not take it this way. I really hate this people that starts to think im kental or kind of stuffs.OH COME ON.
Main bola suroh orang. "Shaz, do your thing" Ah fuck you ah! Fikir ape Baboo korang pe?..Abeh aku dah buat,
dah mula "enyeeyeyeyyeye...carik pasal..irritate aku. ejek2 aku. Perangai sial. Korang uh buat aku lose confidence.
Because of you guys im like this. Fuck you guys. Im telling you this Fuck you!. Thats why I dont talk to you guys that much anymore.
It will just make my future more worse than ever. I dont really wanna care abt you guys anymore. Im out. You guys on ur own.

Now im having much better life with DAWGS and poly friends. They know im nice and fun to be with. They are really matured. They think maturely.
They behave maturely.My girlfriend is one of the best. I love her so much. Till that she loves to hang out with me even though Im an idiot, clumsy,
flimsy, careless, fool and more at times. I really consider myself lucky to have her. I really dont think any other girls want to be with me
with this kind of character, other than her (:. Even if Im a year older than her, I respect her. Even she screams, yell, shout, vent anger on me, I know that in her heart, she still love me.
And I do love her. Always love her. I dont shout, yell, vent anger nor scream, its because I love her, I understands how she feels.

But now, things change. Everytime I take a look at something. My mind will always think that "Hmmm...he/she looks like have a happy life.
Friends and confidence of ourselves really brings us up in life. A LOT!.Friends, chit-chatting together, have fun together. Well enjoy mostly together. Thats when you have close and awesome friends. They will always
be with you at long times.Confidence is when friends gives good advice and compliment to us which will brings us good and steady life in the bright future.

Well for me, my life is not at stake. Its just that its simple and really mean simple. No really close friends.
I just envy people a lot! Im that envious abt them as my life is nothing similar compared to them. Not even close.
Thats why I tend to smile. When people are having fun with friends around them. Laugh. Smile. Play. Work. Fun. Even Argue.
And that includes my gf. She really does have a lot of friends around her. When she's having a smile and fun with her friends,
I will tend to smile and think that she's having a good life with her friends. Even she's down, angry, or anything not related to happines,
she's still have awesome friends around her to back her up. Well even me sometimes. The wierd thing is that I tend to help others.
But I dont help myself. I just cant. And NO ONE can. I envy talent the most! Like seriously, look at those famous artist and people.
They JOKE around. They Sing. They play. They strive. They achieve dreams. They play music.
Lots of stuffs.

What can I do? Nothing. Well if I were to play the keyboard, guitar and drums too, I could play them. But all of a sudden I lost touch of those two.
Talent? Football?Well actually my dream was to be an awesome football player. Famous. Playing in those big leagues.
But its just my dream. I can't persue it. Impossible for me in Singapore. Cos singapore just suck in football.
So I was thinking off migrating to one of the European Countries one day. Go for some academy or try outs.
But my life in Europe will be very different from Singapore. So yuh. Im not sure abt migrating. Mmm..
When I starts to envy singers, I suddenly have the urge to try out singing. It turns out to be bad.
So maybe its just not my thing to do.

Well, my gf has a dream. A dream she really wants to persue, from the very beginning. She really loves singing.
And to be honest, she really does have an awesome and sweet voice. Im not joking. Even if there are slight mistakes, but still she's way way way better than mine.
I really envy her singing lots. I really really pray for her that she will persue her dream on one very special day in the future. I will be proud of her.
I will help her gain her confidence and also with the help of her friends. Once she's persued her dreams, I would be happy for her and would be smiling at her.
I would also congratulate upon achieving her dreams. Well, the least I can do is I'll pray for her and wish her luck(:

Well, for now, I dont have a proper , inspired, possible and achievable dream. I will just keep on going the boring and simple path as my dad then.
Nothing awesome. Nothing great. Just work and support ur own life and family. Nothing much. All the normal routines.

Well okay. Thats it for tonight.
Im just bored and nothing good and cheering of myself is in my mind right now.
And now, because of me, she's not her right now. I just wonder why. Hmmm.....

Somehow Im just different...I dont know if its in a good or a bad way...Only God knows it...

YES. Life isnt perfect. But unless you make an effort, maybe...just maybe you'll make a change to it.
Well I really wish I could do that in somewhat or someway.
Goodnight... :/

2010-03-04T09:33:00.000-08:00

Its really a day.

Went out to Shaw House(orchard road) with Zilah to watch
"Alice In Wonderland"
Its kinda of a fun movie with 3D effects whereby we needed to wear the
3D Glasses.
Seriously the 3D glasses was so cool.
LOL..Have never wore that b4.
This is the how the 3D glasses look like..
COOL RIGHT? hahahah!

After watching, I didn't feel like taking those glasses off..I think it looks fit on me XD..
So anyways..after movie we head back to tampines 1 to eat BBQ chicken
Zilah had not tried BBQ chicken yet so I brought her to one.
She didnt tell me that she doesnt like spicy food and
she ordered the Black Pepper Chicken stick. -.-
Well its a little bit spicy in that Black Pepper but too bad she gotta finish that plate XD

*Random Picture!* Heh!

After eating that like normal la...walk home from Tamp interchange there.
Not really WALK home lah..
We walk till reach around zilah's place then
I continue walking till Ngee Ann sec bustop
and then APE LAGI Bus lah!
Hahah!
Whoah when i reach home already all of a sudden super tired!
Now its 1.50am and I think Im gonna catch some sleep
GOODNIGHT!

Brand New

2010-02-24T08:53:00.000-08:00

PAY CHEQUE COMING!

Haha. First timer mah.

________________________________________________________

"THE LAST AIRBENDER"
Coming Soon
July 2010

I gotta catch this movie man!
Cant miss it.

Yeah

2010-02-15T09:13:00.000-08:00

Today was such a good day for work.
We had a 15% discount and guess what...lots of people came.
I meant LOTS.
Haha.
It was a busy day at work.
Finally today I was taught to be a cashier.
Its kinda of complicated at first but slowly I'll get use to it =p
And thank goodness...from now on I could have my own commission :D
So far made around $380 sales only :(
But at least I know how to be a cashier and that way I could get earn more SALES!
Yeah!

New Path

2010-02-09T09:03:00.000-08:00

Its been long since I've blog
Now I'm gonna try to update as much as possible
So far I'm busy with life.

Yeah..Now I got my first job.
I have been working for 5 days already.
So, its kinda tired especially on weekends whereby there will
full loads of customers buying shoes.
And I'm telling you those shoes are great.
And they aren't really costly or cheap.
Withing the range of $29.90-$49.95..
On my second day of work
I happened to see a pair of shoes
and its super nice.
I think im gonna buy it one day
and its $39.95.
So its not really expensive..
So yeah..my first job kinda fun and tiring.
Weekdays dont really much customers.
So tonight I'm not really that tired..

2010-01-14T02:53:00.000-08:00

Above is my piano/keyboard cover for
Bad Romance-Lady Gaga
Like usual, still few mistakes
but anyway hope you enjoy it! :D
Hahah..this is my first time trying the whole song okay....
Happy watching (:

Past, Present, Future,

2010-01-12T07:37:00.000-08:00

I've made up my mind.
It seems some do care while some are not.
I dont mind..while why should i care to those who are not to me.
Let it be..
I wanna thank to those who are up for me..
Thank you sooo much.
Well it seems to me that I still got a long journey to go.
Now, I should forget my PAST that pulled me down
in the PRESENT and
I wont let it happen again in my FUTURE.
So..all I have to do is just be myself.
So far my PAST has been a miserable one for 10 years
I repeat 10 years.
If this person read my blog and knows what Im talking abt
He should understands this situation.
If not, I don't know what to say so why should I bother his life
when he has his successful and satisfying ones
Waste my life time and let him be.
Okay im done with this situation.

New topic..
Ohoh! I have done the Joint Admission Exercise(JAE)
Well..I hope i could get the course that I want.
Here they are.

TP= Interior Architecture & Design
TP= Mechatronics
TP= Interactive Media Design
TP= Aerospace Engineering
NYP= Mechatronics Engineering
SP= Marine Engineering
NP= Mechatronic Engineering
NYP= Aerospace Systems & Management
TP= Games & Entertainment Technology
TP= Interactive Media Informatics
TP= Information Technology
TP= Info-Communications

So yeah..Its not the end for me...
Still gotta strive harder!
Come on ShAz!

Fated

2010-01-11T05:53:00.000-08:00

Well I feel so down. Like seriously
Well..firstly Im am very happy for my friends with their results
especially Khairul Nordin with the best among us.
Congratz ah Khai..
And also wish for a good future to all of my friends.
Good luck..

NOW secondly..my turn..
My results turn out to be the other way round.
Well basically I got 24 points which is so useless.
I feel so stupid and pathetic.
I mean like seriously...while others have range of 10-17 or 18
while Me here got 24.
I feel so down..
And And And...FUCK MY BAD DREAMS
And I repeat
FUCK THEM!
Remember my earlier post abt having bad dreams?
And one of them was having 24 points
Guess what i really happened.
Fuck it man..
Fuck my life.
Bad dreams of O lvl results.
What's next huh!?!?
God Dammit

Reaching the END

2010-01-07T07:45:00.000-08:00

Long time i've not post something on my blog..
almost forgot abt it...XD
Anyways...the BIG HIT is coming!
DAMMIT...why does it have to be so fast..
Wished that day dont happen so fast..
Oh oh oh...for the past few weeks
I had dreams which i could say both GOOD and BAD.
I had dreams of my O lvl results..
In my dreams...i had 4 different kind of results.
Points : 24....18....9....and 58.
Weird and random...the last one abt 58 points kinda stupid and rubbish
but stil i dont know why...
Impossible to get 58?
The HELL?
Anyways...i hope my dreams wont come true especially the bad ones!
if the bad ones appears...i would totally fucked up..seriously..
Fuck those dreams...
Must think positive..
YES..POSITIVE!
Mr teo "Come on,Press On"
Hahaha..

Prom Night!

2009-12-14T09:11:00.000-08:00

Hell yeah..
Prom Night is super awesome.
Dancing on the dance floor is the best.
Dance like we nvr danced before..
Like as if we had taken drugs.
HAHA..
Dance till we die and tired. XD
And also I wore something that looks smart
BUT!!!
I look like one hell of a waiter in one of those restaurants... -.-"
I wanna thank Janiah for all the great effort on organizing this prom night.
It would be any prom night if it wasn't her effort.
Thanks Janiah..:D
And NOW after all the dance...I'm freaking tired...
So I thinks thats all i could post tonight..!
GOODNIGHT! [:

2009-11-23T04:40:00.001-08:00

Heyz....I was forced to wake up early at 12nn to get ready to go to Ehub.
We watched 2012..
I would say that it is a great movie although it is a bit nonsensical but with all the actions and stuffs
Overall rating 4.5/5.
So do go and watch this movie.
Yeah...after that we go this food restaurant called "GI JI" I guess.
Their nasi lemak and laksa nice man....
Should go there more often.
It's at the outside of the century square lvl 1.
Good ones!
Yeah... Its just another great day...

Jyeah!

2009-11-23T04:25:00.000-08:00

Worst Case Scenario...

2009-11-14T04:45:00.000-08:00

This morning, I was fully shocked man..totally..
guess what...
At around 8am in the morning, I heard my dad talking over the phone.
And I happened to hear what he was saying
(didnt mean to eavesdrop)
When I heard him over the phone, I started to worry.
Seriously worry and a little bit confused.
At that time, he suddenly LOST his memory...
He then starts to call his friends at work that he's not going to work that morning.
After the call, around 2 mins later, he started to call another person abt the same issue.
Then around 2 minutes later, he starts to keep on calling the same people
over and over again...
He called his friends and asked/tell the same issue...
At that time, he did recall that he had called his friends abt the issue.
I remembered hearing him say that he had a blackout or blank mind all of a sudden..
Then when i woke up and asked him whats wrong
but instead he asked me whats the day and he date today.
I said Saturday the 14.
And again he asked me the question at abt 10+ times already..

I dont really know what happened to him.
He tends to asked the same question to the same person over and over again.
NOT just 2 times or 3 but can be 10 times....
He then continued for almost 2 and half hours.
I then told him to go to sleep and rest to refresh his mind.
At first, he was stubborn and continued the same thing.
At one time, he really then went to sleep.

The good thing is that when he woke up, he was like brand new.
Not recalling or realising what happened 3 hours ago..
Man...what is this problem called?
Short Term Memory? Amnesia?
I dont know..its very weird though!
Its the first time I'm seeing this.

16 Down! 1 More to Go..

2009-11-10T06:54:00.000-08:00

It has come to the END!
Enjoy....woohoooo....
left with phy/chem paper 1
who want to study?
After that paper...gone for soccer till night woohooo!!

Oh man...gotta fork out 20 bucks for class chalet and another 25 buck..
haiz.
btw my work is not confirm yet...so ppl please don ask me again.
Thank You

14 Down!!! 3 More To Go

2009-11-09T07:55:00.001-08:00

I came across this picture...
Kinda cool!
I think maybe on the last day of O lvl,
I'm going to celebrate my end just like this manager above..
Funny though.
See the expression his face how happy he is.
Left 3 papers!!!!
Then on the 11/11/09 will be the END!
Come on lets just close our eyes and we will reach it!

12 Down! 5 More to Go

2009-11-04T07:32:00.000-08:00

Geography and physics are done.
12 down! 5 more to Go.
Ohh man..the end is getting nearer
cant wait for it to end quick.

Upnext is Poa Paper 1 and 2.
Aiming for a distinction for P.O.A
A1!!!
Lets do this

10 Down! 7 More to Go

2009-11-03T09:30:00.001-08:00

Dnt is done!
No more of this theory shits.
Yahooo!

Next is physics and geog..
Physics is gonna be fun.
My second favourite sub.
Geog? okok one lah.
Need to go study...
cant wait for it to finish ah!

9 Down! 8 More to Go

2009-11-02T07:36:00.000-08:00

Social Studies is over!!!!!
Yess! No more of seeing this shit..
No more SS! No more SS!
Can tear and burn them all up.
The last time I will be seeing SS.

At the same day..Chemistry is done too! :p
Woohooo! No more Chemistry.
But maybe one day I may miss doing Chemistry :(
But the important thing is that O level is gonna end in ONE WEEK time.
And then its OVER!

Upnext is D&T.
More boring paper!
but can wake up late..haha ^.^
I wanna study Dnt lah....bye!

With the Eyes of Desire.....

2009-10-29T08:31:00.000-07:00

50 things I want to do/ want after 11/11/2009( O levels)!

1. "Just try." If can good...if cannot nvm..understandable.
2. Play soccer most of time.
3. Play navyfield everyday!
4. Tear away my dnt textbook! Every single page of the book.
5. Go wander around in singapore.
6. Go peninsula, bugis st, wisma atria or other places that I have not been to.
7. Lepak all the way with friends till night.( can be boring but who cares, O lvl finish mah!)
8. Buy new wallet.
9. Trade in for my handphone or maybe just buy a new one.
10. Get a line instead of using prepaid..
11. Buy the latest earpiece or headphones.
12. Go work at PUMA/NIKE/ ADIDAS/ MIZUNO shops..etc
13. Go for a soccer trial...on every single club in Singapore.Must get through!
14. Go as many chalet as I can.
15. Buy new pair of latest soccer boots..must see if after O lvls got new one come out.
16. Buy an mp3?
17. Buy new jeans.
18. Buy new T-shirts!
19. Learn how to dance???.... esp. michael jackson's move-Ultimate!
20. Buy contact lenses.
21. Build up and train my body.
22. Grow much taller at least zilah won't win me! target: 172cm (: currently; 168cm
23. Keep my sideburns very long and I mean it! Only sideburns!
24. Subscribe my Mio TV for champions league and upcoming premier league.
25. Get a bike?
26. Play takraw.
27. Play soccer at night at the red court? Btw how to see? Use flashlights?
28. Say " selamat ah korang amik O lvls nanti" at my sec 3 malay friends!
29. GET a PS3?
30. Eat at swensens...hey I nvr tried eating there b4 okay.
31. Try to do breakdances?
32. Buy a Baby Grand Piano or the latest keyboard with recordings available.
33. Buy an semi-acoustic guitar.
34. Go jamming with friends.
35. Watch graduation video of every class..if have.
36. Learn to play more songs ; Bad day , Hey there Delilah, Blow me away etc. and many more.
37. Go jogging every weekend mornings.
38. Go Swimming?
39. Oh ya...go swimming with E3 mates at Jurong East.
40. Try shisha? If no.1 can, I dont try. If no.1 cannot, Just try for ONCE maybe.What! Nothing wrong right?
41. Try Not to sleep for one day.
42. Try to sleep 24 hours? Crazy ah!
43. Gotta help nat! to teach her maths.
44. Pat on izyan's back and ask " eh...ape jadi ah ngan band kiter?"
45. Go bowling..
46. Play carom.
47. Laugh at my sec 2 bro that he still have school to STUDY! for N lvl two years later.
48. Learn to play drums.
49. Buy a new belt.
50. Smack on my abg sedara and say , "Aku dah habis O lvl ah...tunggu kau...aku akan beat kau nyer 14 points..watch out man!"

These maybe the current 50 that have in mind.
Maybe there's another 50 more of them to come..
Okaaayyy... NEXT TIME DOKS! Bye!

Break Period*

2009-10-29T08:14:00.000-07:00

Today i woke up at 10+ in the morning
then nvr go dnt which supposed to be at 8am.
Damn sleepy man like as if I had a hard night yesterday
At night like usual go study with nizar, azri, syafiq, zabir and khairul.
And now here I am blogging away
while enjoy eating my Burger King (doublecheese burger).
Tonight got nothing much to blog abt.
So till next time ya'll!

7 Down! 10 More to Go

2009-10-28T07:39:00.000-07:00

Maths paper 2 done !
or should i say Mathematics is no more for me ....
I think i've done my maths properly this time
compared to paper 1.
I hope i'm gonna do well for my maths!
Wooohooo!~~

Yess! Tmrw no paper.
Break time..but still gotta go to school for Dnt extra class.
*sigh*
Guess what its 8 in the morning!?
Its like gotta wake up early and study for dnt!
Pfft...

Darn i feel very weak tonight man!
I don't know why man!
I think i'm gonna be off soon.
Till next time then!

6 Down! 11 More to Go

2009-10-27T08:34:00.000-07:00

Maths paper 1 is done...
And I brought three different types of calculator....
just for spare or ppl didn't bring it....
Mathematical set? Waste only...nvr use it sia....
Dam....i got few careless mistakes man!..
Ahhhhh!...No more talking abt this paper 1

What's DOne Is Done!

The thing is that I wanna to finish this O level as quickly as possible...
and after that play soccer like hell!!!
HAAAAAAAAAAAAA....
And not only play soccer..
still got lots of other THINGS to do....

Upnext is Maths paper 2.
Must do properly man.
Overall must get A1 for maths..
I have to!I want it!
Kay lah...i want to go study lah

Come on people Press On!

5 Down! 12 More to Go

2009-10-26T07:48:00.000-07:00

YESSAAAHH....
English Language is Done!
No more of that piece of shit.....
I've been thinking of getting rid of that subject for good.
*Relieve*

Upnext is MATHS!
Woooohooo.....confirm gerek....
Favourite subject mah....
Gotta bring two calculators....
kiasu and to be safe....
Oh shit.....the worst thing is i lost my maths sets!
Gotta find it.....

And Zilah....english is not super easy shit okay!....is hard to me.....
BUT Maths is easy......so...take that!
Hahahhah...

2009-10-15T09:31:00.000-07:00

2009-09-24T08:11:00.000-07:00

Choices Of Courses.(not in order) -----------Cut-off points

1. Aerospace Engineering. (TP) --------------------------13

2. Interior Architecture & Design(TP/SP) --------------14 /17

3. Interactive Media Design.(TP)-------------------------17

4. Chemical Engineering. (SP/TP) ----------------------13/18

5. Mechatronics. (TP) ----------------------------------- 21

6. Aeronautical Engineering (SP) ------------------------12

Its gonna be either Singapore Polytechnic or Temasek Polytechnic.

Trying Hard To Reach

2009-09-24T06:57:00.000-07:00

Supz!!!!! Finally I revived my blog...yeah thats right revived!.
All of the sudden I feel like blogging.So, never mind.

Feeling motivated this time but not motivated enough.
Dreams. Dreams. Dreams. Dreams.
Every single person in this world has to have his or her own dreams.
I'm sure they want to make their dreams come true and to have a bright future.
Obviously, I want it too.
Some people had their dream came true and they are very happy and glad of it.
I'm happy for them too.
I have a dream and this dream of mine really means a lot to me.
But I think my dream can/may come true but I found out that it may be too late to try.
Generally, its what people say " ITS NEVER TOO LATE TO TRY."
But I think that its may be too late for me.

My dream is to become a professional footballer just like any other players in the world.
I knew that this dream does not need education but can earn sufficient salaries as a matter of fact.
I've realised that most players had their dreams at such an early age.
I started to have this dream since I was 14. Kinda late though.Nvm.
I really have the heart and interest in this AND I strongly want to pursue this dream of mine.
But here in Singapore that kind of dream of mine cant really be that satisfying and have the quality. Its like.....the dream of football in Singapore does not exist.
Its kinda impossible for me to migrate or move to other countries like England to try.
Its kinda late for me to try as my education has to come first.
Thats is why its hard to believe in reaching my dream.
By the time i had finished my studies of 3 or 4 yrs in polytechnic, already at the age of 19-20, have to go for National Service of 2 yrs....like that I am already 22 yrs old.
And I have decided not to continue my studies anymore.
To me, at the age of 22 is kinda late.
I envy Fandi Ahmad of achieving his dream as footballer.
I wanna try that...Its the strong kind of confidence that I need to have.
No matter what....even though people thinks I'm stubborn and dumb to do it.
I don't care what it takes to make it real.
I just have to try!
I just have to believe in myself.

But for now I have to concentrate on my O's and achieve good results.

I gotta to do what I gotta to do.

I really dont want to care
if people say things to me.
Have to take it.
Lets do this.
= 14 points =

2009-08-17T08:38:00.000-07:00

My Blog is dead i think.....
so maybe one day i'll update it when im free.
Been busy always with my 'o' level especially my dnt coursework!
DARN IT!
So yeah,....maybe one day i'll revive this blog.

-ShAz-

"Zizi?!?"

2009-06-28T05:50:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is the day where holiday ends..
hmmm..time really travels fast in a blink of an eye...

Homeworks are like a storeroom in my house...
Lots and Lots of them...but yet, none of them is done.
Very Good uh Very Good.....
Hai...ape nk jadi....
I hate this.
Laziness of mine is ultimately strong and distracting.
Whenever I think of doing any one of the hmk,
but then suddenly feeling too tired or lazy to do it.
And this keeps on over and over again...even till today.
What has gone into me...
Too much sports? Too tired? Too busy? Or just plain Lazy?
I donnoe what has gone to me...I even feel sucked whenever Im in school.

Do you know how it means being like the odd one out.
Seriously..
Am I like not supposed to be out there or in there?
Am I like a bugger?
Am I like a noob freaking guy?
Am I really that dumb or idiot?
Am I like a invincible guy?(negative)
Am I a person that like to be taken advantage of?
Am I like the jerk or sucker to everyone?

Whenever I do something that I think is right for me or for fun,
"something" will always come out to me and making me feel like an asshole or
freaking noob.
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I may not be able to be like one of you guys but I still hang around with you guys...
It seems that whenever we help each other, appreciating one another is a good thing but its hard to tell if its sincere or not.
Some people would just need the help but ending up taking advantage.

I just don understand some people nowadays.
Whenever the person is alone, he/she will be friendly to the other person as in talk nicely and everything.
BUT...whenever the person is with their "friends", they act as if they are big and funny and everything.
Sometimes they say "joking only lah".."chill lah"..., to them its just a joke that could entertain others or him/herself but to the "victim" does not feels the same way as the "JOKER"

What does this tell about his/her attitude?
Fucked up right...
I just don understand lah.....

LIFE CAN JUST BE SUCK THAN EVER...

Can someone PLEASE tell me what is the meaning of TRUE friends?

I had enough of keeping this in mind...I really cant take it...
Life has to move on and on till the "END"

Transformers ; Revenge Of The Fallen

2009-06-23T07:14:00.000-07:00

I tell you Transformers;Revenge Of The Fallen is freaking awesome to the max(t.t.m) man!!Like wanna watch it over and over again..Seriously shit...Ultimate movie to watch....There are parts whereby sad,NICE,exciting...Optimus Prime and Bumble Bee are the best...the way they fight..Just Awesome...And Also other autobots..The Decepticons really hell of a strong force when it comes to revenge!

AUTOBOTS:

The Fallen

Optimus Prime

Bumble Bee

IronHide

Ratchet

Mudflap

The Twins

Skids

Sideswipe

& 3 more bikes.

DECEPTICONS:

The Fallen

Megatron

Starscream

Blackout

& a lot more!!!

2009-06-09T08:36:00.000-07:00

I have something in mind...
but suddenly I do not know why I feel like I'm dead nowadays.
Feeling like as if I do not belong here(class,school,Singapore or earth).
Not emo ah!!.
Its just that I think that there's something thats not right
that is happening during this few days.
Or maybe my life is getting weirder and weirder and weirder...
Even when I played soccer, I played not like as usual..getting more sucky.
Is it me or is my life is being fooling around with me?
Am I like worrying too much abt something?*
Or maybe its just my life that is gonna be like this forever..
haizz....I don noe lah..its fate..I can't do anything to change it..

2009-06-01T07:22:00.000-07:00

Haiyooo long time no see this blog..
Its have been weeks since I last updated.
Just now was 'O' level MT paper..
I tell you..i totally cock up sia...
Paper 1 was okay..
Paper 2 hancur...bekecai..

After paper, we like woohoooo.. no more malay paper..
everybody was like so happy like as if finish 'o' level.haha
Then play soccer till 6.45pm. so late sia haha.

I think I'm holding something to myself..
Should I let it go or not?
I wonder...
What should I do?
Is this it?
No more?
Is it the end?
Or maybe I should hold it a little bit longer or so.
Haizzz.. ntah lah eh..
Hidupku semakin pelik setiap hari ataupun saya seorang weirdo

-ShAz-

2009-05-06T06:14:00.000-07:00

Today dam sleepy lah sia...
In class cannot concentrate..easily doze off in every 5 mins.
Oh ya..All this time..we took our temperature and mine was 35.2 degrees.
Xiao ah..then the second last period b4 recess got another take..
and this time was 34.8 degrees..as if im an eskimo or something cold-blooded freak..
haha..after school, go home straight and sleep..zzzz
Slept for at least 4hours..shiok man sleeping.
.
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Then at night, felt like playing some music..played the guitar..then play the keyboard..
I played two songs tonite..
Stop & Stare by One Republic || In the end by Linkin Park.

Stop & Stare-One Republic.
Sorry ah this one like bastard ah..yawning in front of camera.oops
feeling a bit lethargic..see my face like wan to close eyes already..
Enjoy listening or watching?!? haha

Ah!!! This one im not that sleepy or tired..so okay lah..
Oh ya..This is ''In the End -Linkin Park''
Mind the mistakes plz

Do give comments..I appreciate it lots..
ThanK You.

Peace Out
-ShAz-

2009-05-03T04:01:00.000-07:00

[Chorus - Justin Timberlake]:
Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone
Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone

[Verse 1 - T.I.]:
Ever had one of dem days you wish woulda stayed home
Run into a group of niggas getting they hate on
You walk by they get wrong you reply then shit get blown
Way outta proportion way past discussion
Just you against them, pick one then rush em
Figure you get your hair? that next
They dont wanna stop there now they buzzin
Now you gushin, ambulance rushin you to the hospital with a bad concussion
Plus ya hit 4 times plus it hit ya spine paralyzed waist down now ya wheel chair bound
Never mind that now you lucky to be alive, Just think it all started you fussin with 3 guys
Now ya pride in the way but ya pride is the way you could fuck around get shot die anyday
Niggas die every day all over bull shit dope money dice game ordinary hood shit
Could this be cuz of hip hop music or did the ones with the good sense not use it
Usually niggas don't know what to do when their back against the wall so they just start shootin
For red or for blue or for blow I guess, from Bankhead or from your projects
No more stress, now I'm straight, now I get it now I take
Time to think, before I make mistakes just for my family's sake
That part of me left yesterday the heart of me is strong today
No regrets I'm blessed to say the old me dead and gone away

[Chorus - Justin Timberlake]:
Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone
Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone

[Verse 2 - T.I.]:
I ain't never been scared, I lived through tragedy
Situation coulda been dead lookin back at it
Most of that shit didn't even have to happen
But you don't think about it when you out there trappin
In apartments hangin smokin and rappin
Niggas start shit didn't next thing ya know we cappin
Get locked up then didn't even get mad
Now think about damn what a life I had
Most of that shit look back just laugh
Some shit still look back just sad
Maybe my homeboy still be around
Had I not hit the nigga in the mouth that time
I won that fight, I lost that war
I can still see my nigga walkin out that door
Who'da thought I'd never see Philant no more
Got enough dead homies I don't want no more
Cost a nigga his job, cost me more
I'da took that ass-whoopin now for sure
Now think before I risk my life
Take them chances to get my stripes
A nigga put his hands on me alright
Otherwise stand there talk shit all night
Cuz I hit you, you sue me,
I shoot you, get locked up, who me?
No more stress, now I'm straight, now I get it now I take
Time to think before I make mistakes just for my family's sake
That part of me left yesterday the heart of me is strong today
No regrets I'm blessed to say the old me dead and gone away.

[Chorus - Justin Timberlake]:
Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone
Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone

[Justin Timberlake]:
I turn my head to the east I dont see nobody by my side
I turn my head to the west still nobody in sight
So I turn my head to the north, swallow that pill that they call pride
The old me is dead and gone, the new me will be alright
I turn my head to the east I dont see nobody by my side
I turn my head to the west still nobody in sight
So I turn my head to the north, swallow that pill that they call pride
The old me is dead and gone, the new me will be alright

[Chorus - Justin Timberlake]:
Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone
Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone

2009-05-01T02:21:00.000-07:00

Exams had barge in our holiday mode...
Study,study,study...
But as if I want to study that much.
Today after prayers,go makan at KFC
with Syafiq, Khairul,Azri,Nizar & Mir.
Khairul is rigth..The COLESLAW smells
really like someone's fart sia..then nvr eat lor..
Then mir & khairul go home.
I was totally like free today.
So followed Nizar, Azri and Syafiq
study at Mc Cafe in downtown.
Then Iza came.
I didn't bring any study materials.LoL

Study,study for a while then go walk walk at Pasir Ris Park.
Then go beach, play with sands.hahha
*Pictures taken*

2009-04-30T07:50:00.000-07:00

To all readers, Im sorry that
I didn't update my blog for a long time
Been busy with my non-stop coursework of Dnt.
I try to update if I have the time.
Exams are coming or maybe I should say
already come? Don care lah.

This year's mid-year exam, I feel like there's
no exam at all.. No fear, no nervous, nothing at all.
Donnoe why..
Today was paper1 exam english and malay.
Haiyaa confirm only get swee swee marks one.

Midyear Exams, I can just blindfold myself and
pretend there is no exam.

Peace out dudes
-ShAz-

2009-04-26T05:24:00.000-07:00

Today sure a packed day like hell...
Morning-1pm: Tuition
Afternoon all the way: Hmk,hmk hmk...
I tell you hmks are so called non-stop activities...

My post today maybe short..so sorry coz of hmk lah..haizz..

Oh Ya..almost forgot..I wanna thank yikzhen for the help...
thanx a lot yikzhen.!!
And my friend..do not worry of maths..
I make a deal or maybe a trade.hahas..
You help me P.O.A, I help you with Maths aites..!
Don worry..you will still 1st in class....but eugene is competing with you too..
ahhahss.so good luck my friend..

-ShAz-

2009-04-24T08:05:00.000-07:00

I tell you english period is fun.
Mdm Noreha sometimes makes fun of people like last time
she talked about Nizar.blablabla..(kurang ajar)hahas
During english period, we went to the com lab to use the
criterion thingy..I forgot what its called..nvm.
Mdm Noreha would always like to make a check of essay hmk
b4 entering the lab.
Its like as if an immigration checkpoint..haizzz.
The criterion thingy is very good as in reflects on the essay that
we had typed.I got 5/6 for it and ''skillful'' but its okay wan coz
most of us got 5/6 also..So..its like in general.

After prayers, I had to go for dnt...damm...I got nagged by that
mdm chin for like almost half an hour...Like I was to close my ears
with my earpiece...So annoying man...
I was just right in font of her talking in face to face manner..but yet still
she naggs and shouted at me as if I was like few meteres away from her..
blablabla...den quickly tell mdm chin I go home but
in the end I played soccer with my friends.
Play, play ,play.. padahal exam dah dekat.(One week away)
After soccer, go hall playm sepak takraw..
Sepak takraw is an extremely exciting game to play..
Monday P.E I wonder what will we play..soccer or sepak takraw?
See first..

2009-04-19T05:31:00.000-07:00

I was waiting for results of the game.
Then end up, Arsenal lost to Chelsea 1-2. haizzz
F.A. cup no hope. But nvm still got champions league.hahas
After that, I got tuition till 12.00nn.

These show how busy and hardworking for dnt.hahas

She's leaving tonite...awww man im gonna miss her lots...

My head berdengung( feeling giddy) sikit hahas.
But its okay Dzul.

-ShAz-

2009-04-18T09:24:00.000-07:00

Underneath the stars.

I feel like as im free and like could fly.
haha mepek uh aku ni.
Btw, yesterday nite i chatted with my hunnie,aishah.
The whole night I was worried coz she did not bring any jacket
and she's feeling cold in the hospital as she stays wif her sis.
I cant sleep till 2.30am thinking and worrying abt her.....
But then today im glad to hear from her that she's alright.

Then later today..i had a very bad stomachache..
I wonder what I ate today? Mc Donald breakfast?epok-epok?
donnoe lah..
The whole day got stomachache like hell man..haizzz..

2009-04-17T08:27:00.000-07:00

Haizzz...todae was actually quite fun..quite uh..sort of..
After prayers, I followed syafiq home and
he followed me to somewhere else to buy something
for my lovely aishah..cannot tell what is it.
After buying, we walk to school then played soccer
with Benjamin, Zabir,Mir,Khairul, Azri and Syafiq for a while..
Then eeka & nurin came and just watched us play.zzz-.-
After play soccer, chat with those two at one place.
We talk about one thing.(mengumpat hahs macam paham)
The rest went for NCC so I alone, so I went up hall play badminton
with my good friend, Mr Iqbal..he play pro man...

At 6.35pm, I pass the thing that I had bought earlier

to eeka to give it to aishah:)
Then go home..slept for 2 hours then eat late dinner then
here am I blogging, chatting with my sayang here and doing
nothin else.

Bye dudes...see you guys next time..
Peace out!!!

-ShAz-

Even though ur not beside me rite now,
I can still feel ur presence.

2009-04-15T07:44:00.000-07:00

I got back my chemistry test..haizzz..
no use man..I study,study,study then fail.zzz

Today was the last day of CCA for all Sec 4's I think..
Should be one lah...
So anyways, I went for my cca, then my coach
say that he'll concentrate more on the C'boys and sec 3's
but sec 4's can do anything.
When I heard that I was like have an excited look,
then my coach saw that excited look like ''yesss!!!''
I kena pumping....the hell man!!??! but only 20 lah
no big deal anyway so little...

So we sec 4's slack lah...some do homework...
me and qi xiang walk around the school.
Bored then played one point..
then four teachers came to play also
Mr Izham, Mr Iqbal, Mr two brother Khans.
Abdul Rahman also joined..donoe came from where...

Tonite chatted wif lots of ppl..
And Khairul, will be doing song cover with me tmr
after math booster session..if have..
Confirm gereekk and cooool when play cover together..
and somemore my long-long friend for 10years..very long..
So yeah..looking forward for the cover..
but I will always be nervous when recording us playing....haizzz

-ShAz-

I'll keep in touch with you everytime.
I miss you lots.

2009-04-11T07:58:00.000-07:00

Tonite my dad bought an acoustic guitar cost only $90
that comes with a bag, 5 picks, one guide book.
Actually, I donnoe how to play guitar as
I only play keyboard & piano,
so I just give it a try with the help of the guidebook.
So I keep practicing that night, then I finally how to
play two songs; Im Yours & Zombie.
Quite easy ah. Wooohooo.
After I practiced, I shocked sia coz my father played
the guitar dam good like pro. I've nver seen him
played the guitar b4 so this is first time ah.
Haizzz.
''Anak sendiri tk tau bapak nyer talent''...zzz.haha
So since he played very well, I tried played the
keyboard together with his guitar.(Zombie)
I tell you. Dam nice man together...
Maybe one day I'll post the video here....

-ShAz-

So let me say, that i love you
You're all I've ever wanted
All I've ever dreamed of to come
and yes you did come.

2009-04-11T04:15:00.000-07:00

Yesterday night, watched the movie ''Quarantine'' at my house.
The movie was totally of a fed-up situation whereby people
do not think first b4 doing something.
I tell you, can go fed-up.
The story is about a mutation or infection of raging animals in
a human body. It's similar to ''Resident Evil'' whereby the infected
ones will bite or even eat the alive humans.
And then the whole department of the country, just locked up the whole
building and few ppl were trapped inside. That part was so damn freaking stupid
decision made by the CDC department. I don noe what its stands for btw.
Even ppl that tried to get out of the building will be sniped. THE HELL?!?!?
Then the infection goes on from infected to the non-infected. Then left this reporter
and the cameraman.
Oh i forgot the movie was like so dizzy as the cameraman was like in LIVE.
Camera shaking shaking.
This reporter and the cameraman was left then
lastly both of them were then eaten by the infected ones.
Then THE END.
WTF~~~ RITE!!!
Everybody that was trapped in the building are dead.
This movie has no resolution or a proper end.
Haiayyyaaa. What kind of movie is this...Haizzzz.

Every hour, Every min, Every sec
I cant stop thinking about you
You'll always be in my heart.

2009-04-10T03:38:00.000-07:00

Today is good friday.
Planned to go to Khairul's house for jamming.
After the friday prayers, we went to the new built mall,
Tampines One.
From about 20 metres away from the entrance,
we could already see the crowd there.
When we entered the building, we like had to fight our way in as
there were so many people go in and out of the building.
We walk and go shops to shops till we reached the top.
There's an outdoor gallery or whatever it is
and from there we can see a clear view of the Tmall, century square,
and even the MRT station.
Tampines is like nothing much difference or amazing.
Its just like any other mall.
I wonder why are people still coming to shop.
HAIZ...
Dam boring man...that place.
So we had to fight our way out again.
Then we found out the emergency staircase,
we make a lot of noise in the staircase. Fun sia..
We could even here our own voice as in echo..cool.haha so lame
From there we no need to fight our way out.
We then went to century square to eat but I nvr eat only my friends eat.
It was raining then, while eating, the lights suddenly went off.
Ppl start to make noise ''oiiii!!!''
LOL.
Hamizan: Earth hour,Earth hour!!
LoL
We ate like one hour like that.So long.
After eating, we like lazy lazy then we split.
I also like tired already then didn't go to Khairul's house to jam.
Next time je ah.
Go home sleep till now.

Bye mans, dudes.
PEacE oUt yaw..

I will always be with you
I will not leave you no matter what

2009-04-06T07:49:00.000-07:00

These are the two videos.
Linkin Park-What I've Done || Snow Patrol-Chasing Cars

Mind for all the mistakes I made(nervous ah) haha.Enjoy!

Linkin Park-What I've Done

Snow Patrol -Chasing Cars

So do comment on it.Thanz
The next video maybe Me and Khairul play the song
Here Without You (guitar & piano).
It's gonna be cool dudes!!

So do stay tunes for more.
See ya

-ShAz-

2009-04-06T03:34:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, the whole afternoon till night I went kenduri at Admiralty.
There was so many people that I could not go in the house.
So then since I and Nizam(cousin) were outside, my
aunt ask us to help to buy ice at 7-eleven at the nearest mart.
Then, my other two cousin also followed us(they boring).

Blablablabla..

After we bought the ice, we walked back lah.
Then when we were about to cross the road, we saw people like jogging or what i don know.

Sorry this chat in malay.

Me: Eh. Asl ramai orang nari lari sana, jogging sana ah?
Nizam: Ntah.

Then this one guy(17 yrs i think) with his gang his friend
like walk or light run past me and cousin,

The guy: yahah ah okok!!(answering his other friend who is back far)
ME: (continuing talking with my cousin) ... Ade amazing race ke per?
The guy: Aper kau ckp? Amazing race kau kater? Kau fikirkan klakar ke per?

His reaction was damn slow like 5 mins after his reply to his friend then he said back to me.
After he said back to me, he was not facing the front, then bump 0n the face onto the traffic light pole.
I was like about to laugh at him as loud as I can but I chose not to cause his gang at the void deck there around 15 ppl unless i wanna die lah.haha.
Seriously stupid and like "beylo".
Say,say,say then the face langgar the traffic light.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

See you guys later at night coz i got tuition so i'll the video.
Be right back at 10.30pm.
Peace Out

2009-04-04T06:54:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I cant post the video becoz
after going home from school at 6.45pm,
I quickly got change then help my parents to move the furniture from my uncles houses.
The whole night I was not at home till 4.00 am.
Dam tired sia carrying like a lot of furniture.
Somemore the place is at bukit panjang and Admiralty.
Dam far sia & and the lorry is not that big.
After all the carry, go home straight go sleep, too tired.

Today was bz arranging the furniture around and
these pictures will show you how my house gonna look like.
Nah!(the whole day)

Sorry for the dark ones coz my cam quite sux.haha
So i'll post the video songs soon coz.
So bye all!!

PEACE OUT YAW!

2009-04-02T05:47:00.000-07:00

Today after recess was chemistry lesson(one period).
We greeted Ms Chan at a very high feeling(too happy) with smiles.
*She was wearing as if the girlfriend of TARZAN(Jane)*
She asked why we so happy.
Then she say that she's not coming to our class during SFL.
"Awwwwwwww''
She took class 4e4 instead and our SFL was physics.
Ms Sakinah again, the whole three periods.
Physics,Physics,Physics.
Psycho sia like that.
So after school was only the math booster session.
And I had my malay oral and I sux at it TOTALLY.

I'll post the videos tomorrow.
So stay tunes.
Peace out!!

2009-03-30T07:54:00.000-07:00

Today was the first day of P.E for term 2.
First day already 2.4km run. Xiao ah.
its on monday somemore!! People confirm sloppy one.
So btw actually I aimed for timing of 9mins 35sec.
But end up 9mins 57 secs. haiyaaa 2 seconds improvement only(9mins 59s)
But nvm still got improvenment.
1st-> Shaz(me)
2nd-> Nabil
3rd-> Jiajie
4th-> Nizar

After the run. wah seyh liao, all legs become light wobbly and cramps all over.
My legs muscles cramp like fuck.
When you sit, you cant even stand(too heavy/lazy)
Even till now (11pm), i can still feel the cramp on my legs.

Next P.E lesson will be the five stations.
SHIT I HATE THOSE!!!

Hmk, hmk, hmk..
Oh Ya!!!~
Have I mention to you that Mdm Chin is going to treat her dnt groups students
to swensen if only we got A2/A1 for dnt's 'o' Levels!!
Sweeet man..

Here I am blogging, blogging, blogging, as my hmk have been touched at all.
Im gonna be sick today and tomorrow man!!!
So maybe Im not coming to school tomorrow.hahah.

Alrite dudes, its already late at night, so see ya and tattaa.

Peace out My dudes!!!

2009-03-28T23:55:00.000-07:00

On friday, our school allowed all of our malay boys
to leave the school at 12.30.
But at 12.20pm, the last period was math and Mr Lourdesamy
told us to pack our bags and prepare to leave as soon as
Hamizan had finished the question on the whiteboard.
Hamizan was unsure when Mr Lourdesamy said that
the question was incomplete like 2,3,4,5 times.
So, that dragged the time till 12.35.
Mr Lourdesamy told him to go back to his place.

BLABLABLA.

He told us(the malay boys) to line-up outside.
He said,'' I know you guys are already late so, I make sure I see you all run ah''
We like walk at first then Mr Lourdesamy said," I said RUN go!!''
With our bags(not heavy), we ran from the 3rd floor all the way to the first floor
We intend to walk in the end, but end up running again
coz Mr Lourds watch us from our class till we are gone from the foyer.
It was kinda fun running.

At the school gate there we saw Mr Raj(the Tall O.M)& Mr Azuan Tan.
Mr Tan ask us to show our permission pass to the security guard.
So I have to dig for it in my bag. Haiyaa.
Then Hamizan was the last person and I told him to take out the slip too.
He also have to dig out.
I wanted to wait for him but in the end, I saw him running back inside the school office.
Maybe he went back to class to take the slip(left in class).
So I decided not to wait for him. *Sorry ah Mizan*
So, normal routine goes.

So stay tunes dudes. I'll be posting the song soon.
SEE YA!!

PEACE OUT..

2009-03-27T07:15:00.000-07:00

A warm welcome dudes & dudets
Thanx everyone for the comment.
I appreciate them its okay if its bad comment or what
but its still a comment so thanx again everyone.
Sorry ah I cant post the play on Here Without You
coz it really takes a lot of time to learn it.
Maybe it takes another three weeks or so.(not so easy okay!!)

Since I have not learn the song yet, but I'll post another song instead.
Linkin Park-What I've Done || Snow Patrol- Chasing Cars
I cant promise you guys i'll post it when coz it depends
if im buzy or not kaay?
alright then.

Thanx again..
Stay tunes folks...
SEE YA!!

Peace out dudes!!!

2009-03-22T03:40:00.000-07:00

Hey dudes and dudets and maybe other stuffs that reads my blog. hahah.
I know its been a long time I didn't update my blog.
So holiday is very the freaking boring man!!!!
Homework,homework, homework
so many leh mampos(can die)
hahaha
I started them on thursday and manage to finish them just today.
hahaha.
So Im bored after finish homework-ing.
hahaha
I went to play my keyboard ''lah ape lagi.''

This is me playing two songs. Sorry ah a bit senget.
I just dont know how to rotate it.
F.y.i. Plz mind my mistakes coz I a bit nervous when camcording myself
I just donnoe why.hahaha
So enjoy watching :P

(If you wanna listen to the original song->its on my blog(right)

The Third Temptation Of Paris

Apologize - One republic ft Timbaland(below)

So these are my first two videos of me playing two songs on my keyboard.
Most probably next week I'll post another one or two more videos of these but different songs ah
The Upcoming songs: Linkin Park- What I've Done || Here Without You

Plz do leave a tagged or a comment
I really do appreciate them.
So stay tunes and till next time
dudes & dudets.

Peace Out YAWWW!!!

WHAT A RELIEF MAN!!!!

2009-03-15T05:19:00.000-07:00

As you guys know that I've lost my DNT FOLIO.

Tonite, Asri smsed me that actually the folio is with MDM chin..

The fuck lah!!!!

Lucky sia...I thought is gone like forever...

Yesterday I've redo it till the product analysis....

Then I knew its with tcher...

*phew* lucky man!!!!

WALAO EH!!!

2009-03-14T05:37:00.000-07:00

You wanna something DAMN FREAKY???!?!?!?

I wanted to do my dnt coursework(folio) on my development.But then I realised that my FOLIO is lost!!!!THE FUCK!!!!!
I can't believe it man!!!!
Im so totally dead like shit!!!
My 'o' level coursework is GONE.
I've done so much work on it and its gone...
WHOAH WALAO EH LIKE CHEE BYE SIA!!!!!

So I've to redo EVERYTHING BACK (32pages)

Tonite, I 've restore my laptop coz my laptop has FUCKING virus...
Nadia is such a good friend just like Najlah, as she reminds/advise me something.

So thank you very much Nadia...

So Im off to eat now..

Catch ya later...
Peace out dudes & dudets!!!

2009-03-11T04:22:00.000-07:00

TODAY SUX BODOH!!!!(Sway ah)*

Early in the morning got headache already!!
I have not even started my development(dnt) Die liao,die liao
During Malay class, accidentally delete one folder!!
Chem file many worksheets lost!!
P.E....erm..oklah actually, project was funny!
English period like always FREAKING SLEEPY SIA
(donnoe why)

Math period SUDDENLY BECAME THE WORST.
Becoz of attitude problem of someone in of our class
the whole class got affected THE HELL MAN!!!
If got scolding nvr mind but this time
that's it.. I think Mr Lourdesamy(no offence) cant take it so he made changes to the class.

Haiyoooo. Can this day get anymore worse?!?!?

Shazrin...

2009-03-06T21:39:00.000-08:00

I really love FRIDAYS man!!!Its just awesome somehow!!

Today after school like always go friday prayers.Then go back to school for hanging out there for fun...Then I remembered that there is a frisbee game wif the teachers...All of the sudden Ms Wani came to play also.

YOU KNOW WHAT, MISS WANI WAS TRYING TO "BRIBE/CHEAT/TRICK ME" BUT NOT MONEY UH..
SHE SAID,''SHAZRIN IF YOU PASS THE FRISBEE TO ME I'LL PASS YOUR SS TEST!!!"

Then I thought,'' like real only!!"

So I didnt pass it to her but I pass through her....So nvm...

At the end of the game...Ms Wani say that she was just kidding..
See I knew it she's was just trying to cheat/trick me...

Haiyaaa.So wonderful and fun game it was.

So tired then go home...
THEN sleep....zzzzz

K BYE....

Peace out babehhhh!!!

ps: I was the best player in the frisbee game man!!haha..

2009-03-05T06:37:00.000-08:00

PEA-PLE I WILL TRY TO UPDATE
ON EVERY TWO DAES
OR
ALTERNATIVE DAES

OKAY GUYS!!!

So the next post will be posted tmr..
See ya...

PEACE OUT!!!!:)

2009-03-04T03:19:00.000-08:00

Today was okay lah I suppose....

Mdm chin gave us lollipop sia...(only her group) First time i see mdm chin so good during dnt..(she care about us you know)...
Dnt seriously make my day more of a headache situations. IDEATION LAH, DEVELOPMENT LAH, macam macam ah!!!!
After school got CCA, then in the middle of training, Mr Azuan Tan call/find me n ask me to play frisbee with tcherz. Then oklor.. i skip the training then go frisbee.. Frisbee is FUN ah!!!

PART TAK BEST NI!!!! ( NOT THE FUN PART)..

We like usual at first always like pass to one another, waiting for the tchers to arrive...
Then we started playing.... then 5 minutes later, the lightning alert sounded!!!!!!
WALAO WEH!!!! JUST STARTED SIA!!!! *drizzling a bit*

We waited at the canteen for about 5- 15 mins to see if the rain stops.Then the rain get heavier and heavier... THE HELL!!! then I, aloysius and kahwei continued our training...
WAH SIAN AH!!!

So thats about today...
TILL NEXT TIME......SEE YA!!! :)

Its hard to tell the truth,
Its easy to tell a lie....

2009-03-04T03:08:00.000-08:00

FAILURE....

Its really been a long time I didn't update this blog..Sorry ah

So this year I've a terrible test result sia..the Fuck!!!..

Here it is:
Ss = 4/13
Physics = 21/40 *swee swee wan*
Chem = 10/30 *whoah terok ah*
English compo = 11/30 *like shit*

But good ah my POA at least got pass (20+/ 33) i think i forgot ah...

Haiyaaaaaa..

2009-02-23T02:00:00.000-08:00

Nothin' lasts forever...

Today is Monday...

Yesterday, I've said that Im gonna start afresh today...

My first period was English....AWWW man english!!!
MENDAK AH... = BORING

but eventually, it happens to be that today's lesson was
not boring after all.

What we did:

#1 Learn how to pronounce a word properly
#2 Learn how to write our names in the (what signs I forgot)

Got one example
" .......Class''
''........Crass''

Try pronouncing them....

Then Mdm Noreha asked the class if there's anyone would
have this problem with the pronunciation...

Then whole class say ,'' cher... MR (Rym) got problem...

mdm noreha: ''really?''

Then everybody laughed.....

Mr (rym) or whatever the name is I forgot...oh I think its Mr Lim..
His pronunciation of L or R got slight problem then that's why
ppl saying its him...Funny ah.

LoL ah.....

Then maths lesson was fun too as got game or something
" got wrong answer, another person have to slap the person.''

Example:

* Today Najib wrote the wrong answer on the whiteboard then
Mr Lourdesamy called Benjamin to slap Najib on the cheek while
Mr Lourdesamy hold Najib tight and firm from the back so that Najib
wont run.....

Then ''KEPeKKK'' fyi,(THE SLAP QUITE HARD)
Then next was FIRDAUS KENA slap by Asri...

Its fun seeing them...Funny....
Then nobody got wrong, den no more slap...lor

Then after recess.. Ms Sakinah lesson.
B4 lesson, on the way going up to class

Ms Sakinah: Why SHAZRIN??? got influence by your friends..
somemore, your hair stand up ah....

I was just smiling and laughing with Firdaus then kena.....

fyi, I was once so called ms sakinah's favourite student since last year...
but now no more.. Cause she thinks im like one of the rest. so left SHAUN
the only ONE favourite student and ms sakinah will protect one....For sure...

My hair stand up also wan to say...its good that my hair not long... hhaha

then after school got chem test... sharksssss.. its quite hard....

then blabalabal

go home at 4pm then relax relax, sleep, waiting for the time to go tuition

I wonder how will the condition look like during tuition..

K see you guys next time...
Signing off..

PEACE OUT....

2009-02-21T22:17:00.000-08:00

Nothin' lasts forever....

Today is just simply a day.....

I went to tuition then when going home time

I waited for almost one hour for bus 12.... like the hell?!?!coz I already missed one bus...

When I got in the bus, now then I realised that I wore my slippers wrong side.
(my right foot is on the left, vice versa)

I was like...SHIT!!!! BUT luckily, no one notice it during my one hour wait at the bus stop. Paiseh seyh like that.HAHAHA

In the bus I slowly switched the sides of the slippers without people noticing it.
*Phew....*

I wonder how come I don feel that I wore it wrong side when I was walking??!?!?

Nvm lah...I stopped at Tampines East Bus stop there and go buy burger at Mac..

Then I decided to walk home from there...Don wan to wait for bus anymore...Not far away
Like 15 mins walk.....

Then go home tired...ok now im gonna rest...later, last last then do homework...

SEE YA......

2009-02-20T04:29:00.000-08:00

Nothin' lasts forever....

Okay i know its been a long time i didn't update my blog as its becoz im buzy with my freaking dnt...Sorry guys...

So lets not talk about studies kay...

Today was fun and good day...

Today, luckily i didnt come to school late arh.. reached school 7.18a.m.

Actually i woke up at 6.10, is it early???

But somehow i took such a long time to get ready to too school....

So today's SOCIAL STUDIES period whoah fun arh..
As usual Ms Wani will always check for those who nvr bring books..
Then nicholas didnt bring his file then he gave a good excuse and he say,
''My file is in my other bag''

Ms wani: Whoah you got money to buy a lot of bags but then you dont know
how to bring books. You need your parents to pack for you ah...

(got money and bring books link meh???)

Den like always Ms wani will always shout and scream at our class..

Ms Wani : 4E3 ah... ppl nvr do homework, nvr bring books. <- this part Ms Wani shouted dam loud like the loudest that she could. (like struggling)

Ms Wani: see you have wasted your time(checking of ppl bring books) and I have to take your time (15mins) of recess..

Class: OIOIOIOI...(funny noise as usual)

I sat beside Rong Guang.. then the funny thing he said loudly was '' EH, MS WANI YOU YOURSELF COME 10 MINS LATE, WASTE MORE TIME''

Ms Wani said something abt ready b4 lesson...(Like ppl care)

In the End, Ms Wani actually didn't take 10 mins of recess time...Say only but nvr do.

POA TEST WAS HARD!!!!

After fridae prayers, like usual play soccer then play at field.. I play,play,play then my shoe has a mouth opened but this time its on the left side!!!!

My shoe is just 2 months old, and now so fast ''can talk already.''

So my mum's gonna be mad at me!!!Nvr mind just get a new one. (Like so easy)

Tonite im not gonna care abt hmks.... COMON MAN ITS FRIDAY!!!!!! A lot of things you can do on friday....

Feeling
Relax
In
Doing
Anything
You want..

Till next time....
Signing off...........

2009-02-13T23:27:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentines Dae Everybody!!!!!

2009-02-09T06:39:00.000-08:00

Monday is always a boring day.......After school got practical
...blablabla...Then at 7.45 was my first physics/chemistry tuition
class.Then all malay ah and there were like only six students..Then
rite, I saw one guy came in the class as I thought,"Budak ni macam pernah
nampak je..."(This boy like got seen b4)Then his name is Izwan..
(I think sec5 )Ok maybe I've seen
and heard of him b4 somewhere or maybe same school ah, I donoe...
So after tuition then go home at 9.45 then hmk as usual...

Nothing special ah today....Monday is really a boring day.....
So ive nothing else to say,, so GOOD BYE then..

Today is Sunday....

2009-02-08T00:23:00.000-08:00

Today is my first day of tuition...You want to know where's my tuition?Pasir Ris East Neighbourhood......My tuition starts at 10.00 am but i came totally early at 9.30 so i waited and waited till 10.00 then the room is open and the class was going to start.. THE BEST THING IS THAT MY CLASS ALL MALAY AH WOOOHOOO...(racist ah lol)...THE BAD THING IS THAT the room was totally quiet as if no one was in the room and there were only eight of us in the room.(6 boys 2 girls).So I was the only one from tampines as the rest were from Pasir ris...
First day already got test... the hell?!?!?But nvm it is quite easy(quadratic equation)...

Take 12 go home...then eat Roti Prata with egg... fooo nice....then do my english hmk blablablabla.....I donoe what else to say...
Oh wait....ok nvm lah forget about it so nothing else ah today also still boring day...
Ok den....
Cya...bye....

2009-02-07T00:52:00.000-08:00

Today its saturday good man can wake up late but not as my mother woke me up at 7.30am just to send my little brother to school coz he have a remedial or something..Awww man....I though it was just only to send him to school and suddenly my mother gave me 50 bucks..For what????LOr..she wanted me too buy breakfast for my family as I will be on the way there to T-mart...So I bought breakfast then go home, I was totally tired and still sleepy..So I ate breakfast first then rest and suddenly went to sleep..zzzzzzzz...

I had a terrible dream!!!!!I cant post my dream here so too bad ahhh....I slept like for 5 hours or more coz its from 9.00am till 3.52pm and wow I must be VERYVERY tired... First time ah I sleep like this....So My blog got tagged from my friends and it was at 8+ (so early)....

Now...I still checking out blogss.....good bye!!

2009-02-06T04:14:00.000-08:00

Today early in the morning I woke up and I quickly search for a thermometer as it is temperature taking..Lucky got one thermometer...phew...But i have to buy a new one anywaes..So i went to school and I ask the personal or clerk or whatever he/she is called(only they know),for thermometer then she said "NO MORE THERMOMETER". Ok my brother take care himself as he has no thermometer, so too bad hahaha...

I skipped lessons again haha.., especially P.O.A,fyi, it is a very boring lesson...So hurray i went for my friday prayers at a mosque that is opposite victoria sec...Then straight for my tournament...I had to play third singles man....So nervous....Lasty, I kena trashed man, 21-6,21-8 so what its badminton nvm one lah...I only love soccer the most..haha...So go home and eat Nasi LAUK LEMAK CHILI PADI fuyooo.SEDAPPPP..POWEERRRR....(My favourite)SHiok ahhh....

So now at 8.28pm im still blogging/updating I had nothing to do and be gone with homeworks...I think im gonna learn more piano songs....Signing off,, bye....

Unlucky day.....

2009-02-05T05:20:00.000-08:00

Today, I walked to school with my brother...
The first to period was DNT and like always, nag,nag,nag.....
I come to lesson with my research done but then when my teacher called me to
discuss with her, after all the discuss blablablabla... Skali my research was not
good enough and she said that my problem is too easy too solve and I was like
"the hell??"...At that time, I was like fcuked up with my work and the whole day
I stop thinking of anymore problems...

After school, like always I stayed back to play soccer and hangout at the canteen.I bought an ice-blended milo and I spilled onto my new uniform....FCKKKK.Just bought!!!!Luckily i got wear P.E shirt inside...Then I played the piano at the hall...Muhaimin and Izyan was there too.. I played the song "Apologise by One Republic ft Timbaland" on the piano..Muhaimin wanted to learn the song so much so I taught him the first part of the song..As he practice and practice, he managed to play the first part of the song smoothly.Good Job Muhaimin....

Then go home do nothing.....
Oh..Oh crap got homework. Shit I forgot...
And its already 10.00 but I still have not even started yet.Social Studies BORING..

My Gift (POWER BEB)

2009-02-04T07:24:00.000-08:00

First, time blogging....actually got arh but long time already....
So anywaes i will try to update my blog once a week...

Today, 4th of february 2009, is quite a boring day.....
YESTERDAY WAS MY BIRTHDAY......And my friends wished me a
happy birthdae they even make birthday card as a class. I really appreciate
all the wishes from my friends....Thanks a lot....
Guess what....On my birthday.., my friends gave me a great so called *amazing surpriser*.
which is a birthday something lar..i don noe what it is called...but i know its gonna be painful...
So its okay wan.....Birthdaes a always like that; you get a good and bad surprises...Birthdaes arent gonna
be fun without friends.SO FRIENDS ARE FRIENDS.....THANKS GUYS....

So come back to today(4th feb).....Got P.e. arh... I did my shuttle run... i today sucked at it as i got
10.2secs for my timing...That is slow.....Not good enough.. Last year i got 9.5secs so this year is too bad..So after p.e than i GET SKIPP LESSONS... go tournement lar... BUt lastly, we lost to Boardrick Sec....Haiayaaa...
After the competition, i have to go to tampines sports hall to meet my father. He plays badminton very,very well. LIKE FATHER, LIKE SON....lol...tHEN GO home and start the boring things... DNT!!!!!!aH SHARKS IT SUX TO THE CORE....

B4 I close my entry, i forgot to say. In the morning i woke up 5.45 and got ready
and went to 7-eleven to buy chocolates for this *toot*.

(PS:Spent $16.45)Lol but nvm.,treat.